Cami

Since I am not feeling well I cannot go and see Cami today. I have a fever and cannot take a chance of getting her sick. So, I have called there a couple of times and she is fine. My arms ache to hold her again, but I have not been able to since she had the trach placed. I have to learn how to change her trach this next week and how to clean and change the ties 2 times a day. It takes 2 nurses to do this- all the while my sweet innocent baby cries silently. That comes with the trach- I can no longer hear her cry. It breaks my heart that she is like that- but I can't do anything about it. I am a ferocious mama bear when it comes to my kids. Poor Cami has never had it easy and I suppose she never will. So,I can't go and visit her tonight because of my fever. Kevin did go and visit with her and she vomited on him- part of the trach- if she moves her head too much she vomits. I put up a new chip in with the amount still owed. We have almost enough but they want the January payment as well- so we are still short. Please keep Cami in your prayers- the sweet baby never did anything to deserve this.